At the beginning of an unwelcome journey. I wonder where it will lead. I'm scared. I've been thinking and rethinking that to myself, but never said or written it out loud till now. Admitting it out loud helps to ease the fear a bit, in the sharing.
Fear wakes me up in the early hours with random thoughts of worry-ful things. I feel my chest tighten. I've been face to face with death, watching as he took the life of my aunt as she prepared for a testing procedure while in the hospital. Long suppressed images of that day play over and over in my head only this time with a different loved one.
I feel pain at leaving my family in one state to be with family in another.
Trying to remember Ps. 46:10"Be still and know that I am God."